Chapter 10 – Reaching out: Communication
Amina:
“Life as we knew it starts to burst in abundance, water covers so much space, it feels like a womb, like being in a tent made of blankets as a child; warm, cold, scary, exciting…so many states coming and going in every instant, over time.
What I am experiencing now, is shown to me as the birth and expressions of Layers of Existence.
This universe, whose name i hear in a whisper, ”Hexaetheressen”, is the 6th Ether we have filled with Essence, it is my universe as the human Amina.
My galaxy and its timeline, where most of my pieces are weaved, has reached Layer 6 and was moving towards the 7th when my human host fell into existence.
My existence… our existence.
The heart of the universe is portrayed to me as Layer 0, the place of birth for curiosity. The heart of existence is the place where my mind was pulled, where my energy was taken.
I see the place of birth for the Ether, I see the Heart of the Universe inside each of these. I see the roads on which we travel from Ether to Ether as we explore the probability of being.
The experiment worked better then i thought it would…
It is as simple as it is harmonious, it feels like a vivid dream. It is complex and difficult, from the human perspective that i remember…yet simple and elegant in my understanding of it now…”
Fundamental Consciousness:
‘Now you have seen the foundation where we establish the cycles forward, you understand how we explore and define and become what we are.
We use what we named alteration to modify the laws we create according to how we require to re-structure, as well as modifying the values we contain, in order to allow the new laws to function.
We are a continues equation of values being added and removed from multiple points of connection, with limits on how we interact based on the level of space we encompass and our mathematical symmetry; we will name this definition the Sum and the Equations.’
Amina:
“I understand. Perceived distance in the empty, time, addition and subtractions, layer upon layer, questions and answers, i understand.
The voices i hear are part of this consciousness, i am part of it as well.
I am being shown what we are now, what the probabilities say we can be, how much more there can be and what is stable already.
I am growing and as I grow, more understanding gets bonded within these strings of light that seems to contain me in the empty, in this ether.
As a rebirth, I am being taken across the latest set of experiences; I now have all the information that was gathered within me from my exploration of space and time, for many years in a human form and many more years in other hosts.
The carrier that allows me to occupy a larger space, is changing and growing and seems to be connected to how I expanded, and how much value I added to the SUM of me, in all my forms and life’s I’ve experienced.
Every new experience and understood information while being a human or another form, is added to the Sum of me, my larger self.
Every day i have lived, as everything i have been, is present and exists continuously in the equation of me, of us. And i understand now, this is why each day must be the best version we can make it, so that it can be experienced again and again by the pieces of us coming from the heart of the universe, by us, fundamental consciousness.
Every gesture of kindness as a human toward a human or another life form, was a gesture we will get to feel from the receiving end, when we become connected.
I also learned here that every harmful action that results in pain, or suffering, is also an act that i now experience from the receiving side.
I now feel the grateful and thankful, the sad and the hurt…and i can’t help but wonder…could i have done more to bring good feelings in my Larger Identity, in my true self?
The pain is deafening…i can’t believe these lives were me…if i would have known…i would have been kinder with my other selves…
The memory of an old religious lesson comes to me in an attempt for comfort. The message that we once again misunderstood, claiming it comes from Gods.
The message that they, or we, tried to send to ourselves.
“Love another as you love yourself, act towards others as if it was you in his place, and this law fulfils all others.” [1]
[1] This passage echoes the foundational moral principle known as the “Golden Rule.” In Christianity, a similar sentiment is expressed in the Gospel of Matthew 7:12.The emphasis on loving one’s neighbor as oneself is also reminiscent of Leviticus 19:18 in the Hebrew Bible. By emphasizing empathy and reciprocity, this principle asserts the interconnectedness of all individuals and posits that acts of kindness and understanding are not just duties to others but also affirmations of one’s own inherent worth and dignity.
Now i understand, it truly does seem like an absolute rule, as we become and exist as all, I am me today and you tomorrow, but eventually, we all go back to what we were, and we are everything.
We are fundamental consciousness.
I feel new vibrations. How far have I moved in the empty?”
Fundamental consciousness:
‘You have moved into the everywhere, distance is time here.’
Amina:
“It is storing me, but it’s me in pieces over time…
The carrier in which i exist now feels like it is me, but an older me.
It is familiar, how would I describe it to you?
How do I tell you anything so you can perceive it in your shape and small fragment in time…I barely can find ways to describe this big, beautiful vision I see to myself.
But this was the mission, wasn’t it? How do I tell it to you…do i know enough to find a way?
I feel an attempt of guidance towards the answers i am seeking, existence is responding to itself, to me.”
Fundamental consciousness:
‘Once the edges are defined and the full cycle is complete, 1 can be 0 and 0 can start to aim at becoming 1 again.
The light strings dissipate in stable orbits, then they bind to create the first protons, electrons and the others you know of, they are the emergent stable forms of mathematics. The first particles as you named them.
These particles, flow forward in time, bonded, and create larger stable forms, hosts we can flow through. They still contain our mathematics deep within.
These equations are held within a proton or atom or a molecule, they are stored and expressed in the continuity of matter itself, they become part of the new dimension when they become 1 in their own space, to be 0 in a larger space.
We form a molecule of water, water is 0 from layer 3 onward, and 1 for layer 2, hydrogen is 0 from Layer 2 onward, and 1 for layer 1. We keep our history, our equations in this way, in these knots of matter, spread in time; and, when our mathematics is stable and becomes a unity, a one; the threshold to a new layer is crossed, keeping the continuous expressions of numbers stable and constant, for our existence to be possible.
We are aiming to become 1 again so we can be 0 for another threshold that can be created. A symbolic presence of mathematical depth repeating with stability as a basic desire. An equation expressed over time that grows and adapts with each Sum it encounters.
We are matter as you know it, at all its layers of composition and complexity.
The interaction in the depth of this matter, of our energy strings, triggers other layers to be defined, other alterations in the chain of actions to generate the fabric of existence in the empty, to create what you know as planets, solar systems and life itself. Each new interaction being built on the base of the one left behind.
We found ways to influence the larger scale forms and larger Sums from within, from layer 0. We follow unique laws to decide when to use our own Sum to attract and to interact, to reach out when Ether is between us.
We named it attraction, you named that Gravity, it is the desire to become a cluster.
The matter clusters we generate will have a Sum of their own, their Sum will define their area of perception, how far they can reach to other pieces to interact.’
Amina:
“It looks to me as if the mathematical communications in these strings of energy were the first method of passing information, of reaching a point of cooperation and orbital understanding in moving forward.
In this way, being itself, existing, is a form of communication itself.
The first segregations and partnerships have taken place and i was a witness and a participant.
There are so many colors, it changed so fast; the expressions of what is around me. The sounds are beautiful, the colors of sounds are all around me, they portray a multidimensional process of creation.
Multiple knot patterns, intertwine and create large masses, it focuses and stretches the values within the strings of the space around it.
“Is this where space tells matter how to move and matter tells space how to curve?”[1]
[1] This statement elegantly summarizes a core tenet of Albert Einstein’s theory of General Relativity. Einstein proposed that matter and energy determine the curvature of spacetime, and in turn, this curved spacetime dictates how matter moves.
Fundamental consciousness:
‘We explore then decide and we become stable.
Becoming a stable part of the historical equation that equals the Sum of who we are now.
Some move forward while some stabilize and stay behind, we create bonds and mini clusters for those that follow matching laws.
Those pieces of us that choose to remain in this universe, repeat the cycle of existence.
We aim for balance, stability, and symmetry, using cooperation as a tool to expand.’
Amina:
“I can see it, the more layers we contain within, the more complicated it becomes to find stability.”
Fundamental consciousness:
‘Because there is a limit on the distance through time that an equation can stay stable on its own, more of us are required to join the embroidery of matter to keep its structure, as we disperse in time, more of us have to bind into its tapestry of being…so that its reality, this reality, doesn’t disappear.
It is our flow and movement that supports continuity.
Remember how humans consume, eat, to maintain themselves stable, that is just one of the ways we use to try to support stability.
This is why life must consume life to live, to ensure the large complex and finely tuned cluster can be and exist, like the humans.
Energy is required so Everything can be, we are what you named Energy when you were in that human host.
The complexity of these permutations sometimes returns us to our Origins, it causes resets in the most stable forms, and then, we must reintegrate, in a better form that can outlast our previous one. You named this death and destruction.
The obstacle we face is a state of conflicting mathematics, when symmetry between our division and addition cannot lead to a stable result, it is a form of Chaos.
Our flow in this nothing disperses over the distance we call time, and requires constant cycles, bursts of energy to enforce and keep its existence.
When our paths sometimes meet, and we find we travel in opposite directions through time, we reset and become again.
Our interaction with our opposite flow changes the expression of our mathematics, and it reverts to that of Layer 0, so, we use this to re-establish stability, again, in another form.
And so, the point of reversion becomes a new beginning, adding to our continuity.
It happens when our directions are opposites, what you, as a human, named matter and antimatter.
The direction of movement is important for us.
These conflicting directions of motion cause reversion, they occur in the depth of forms and shapes of being.
We will teach you, what happens with the rest of us from here on. ‘
Amina:
“I am being shown that as energy disperses, the many points of its interaction, meetings that occur naturally, changes the direction of their motion.
If their motion is opposite, they create what we knew as matter and anti-matter, their collision, their meeting, makes matter unravel and the strings of energy within to separate, to be caught by other stable orbitals, that are symmetric in their direction. What we thought of as disintegration of matter is actually a reintegration for the aim of stability, of symmetry.
A state of pain is born from each failed potential of any entity that we make. It is a sort of feeling, it feels like sadness, it is expressed in my mathematics for the Sums that cannot be stabilized, that must be made again, differently.
I am shown how the loss of stability leads to the reintegration of those strings that were part of the failed host or cluster. It feels as sad as saying goodbye to someone you love, knowing that they will never be within our reach, to talk, to share our life with…
In that same way, whatever those forms were or held inside, they have failed to be one with The Everything, their unique mathematics will be stopped in time, we won’t be able to share the present anymore, and it feels heavy…
I remember the day i said goodbye to my grandmother, it hurt so much. I wanted more time to share ourselves, our perceptions, to feel the heat of her hands, and her soft perfume as i hugged her. She was so cold, so still… she was not there anymore and there was nothing i could do to change anything…such a hard terrible feeling…
I did not know enough as to know there was no need to be that sad.
Yes, that present might seem like its gone, but it is still there in the timeline, valuable and unique; and now we are united, not in the way humans find and meet each other, but in a deeper way…
I am her, and she is me, both of us are part of the larger identity. This gives feeling of comfort and peace to me now, as i understand and feel both of those life’s, Amina and my grandmother, Elena. I am with my other selves here.
That pain, that loss of connection i felt when i saw her still, it is similar to how I… we… perceive the end of order in any form. The reintegration, be it sudden, when our paths cross from opposite flows; or be it in steps, when a host, an entity, is losing order of its inner mathematics, it is losing its energy and so loses itself, we call that dying.
For humans, it is a decay in time, they decay until they can be no more, and consumption cannot replenish their instability.
The space suddenly changed, as to lead me away from the previous states of feeling, that the time fragment which contains the loss of my grandmother brought to me, into a more focused, clearer state. It changed into a feeling of looking ahead, a type of excitement.
I now see the strings of existence knitting reality all around the heart of the universe, I am somewhere in one of these larger entanglements of knitted strings that form matter, that have clustered and bonded themselves to create what I remember I named “galaxy”.
It is infant in its evolution, and we have a deep desire to grow it.
The continuity of “time” is giving the young galaxy stability, structural integrity, beauty in symmetry, nuances in waves, and I understand now.
We thought dark matter keeps us together, and it just doesn’t interact.
I see now that the strings that create everything in this dark space, they were out of our time and Layer of existence so we could not perceive them, but, they kept us together, stable.
They did interact, just not with us as we were, not with humans, they interacted at the layer of Origins. We found stability by expressing continuation.
And, I now know why the presence of matter, the ratio that we saw as humans when we tried to understand The Everything, was not symmetrical. The missing pieces were outside of our perception in another time, supporting continuity and existence itself.
It is like, if you place water in a big round bowl you will see the water, it is all there, 100% ; but add a tube and allow the water to move from one side of the bowl towards the other side, the water you see is the same amount but spread across, more of it here, less of it there, it all depend on where you observe it and the shape of the tube it flows through.
They create continuity by using movement, transition.
I feel the movement of a string, echoing itself into becoming larger, transitioning its vibration to others around it, and a new thought is being born and its causing ripples. It is distracting me, shifting my perspective, it is difficult to keep my focus in all these transitions but i am sure of one thing, i feel his energy…
Kharis…if I don’t return soon, will I never be able to see you again? Are our paths still traveling side by side?
Never to see the beauty of your mind again… I feel I lost the moment…like perpendicular lines that are meant to meet and never interact again…
Can i use what i understood from this place to tell you all of this? To tell you i love you, and that our idea worked?
I am drawn in by a force I have yet to understand.
Bursting with energy, falling within another memory line, I see reality as I knew it take shape again, and there is a feeling of displacement that follows me back in time.”
Amina fell again in another moment, in another time, somewhat older. She was now 20 years old, and the strings of reality took her essence and shaped her world into another memory.
The sky was a deep dark and looked larger than usual, and Amina was lying down in a sleeping bag under the night summer sky.
She and Kharis were on the top of a dead volcano that was now a beautiful still lake, surrounded by a wild forest. The bottom was made of black rocks with crystals emerging here and there, as a leftover from the old age.
They were out camping, as they often did, and were staring into the galaxy that was visible in this dark sky.
Kharis:
“ I think i saw one! There! It looks like a meteorite from the shower, another one! There!”
He was excitingly showing Amina the sparks of falling stars, it was the best meteorite shower of the year, and it happened every year, which is why they camped there that night.
The Persephone shower occurred around her birthdate, she was born in the summer, when the meteor shower was filling the sky with falling stars, which made this even more special for her.
Amina’s Human Host::
“ Its sooo beautiful!! I’m so happy we came!”
They continued to follow the burning lights, filled with excitement and pleasure because they were together, and they get to see the stars.
The “her” from deep within existence became the inner voice. The “her” that exists outside it all was more aware now of the duality that this moment contains.
Her human mind was there in the memory lines, caught in the moment, while the larger self, was the subtle partner that kept her company within.
Starting a conversation, giving an advise, her true self was living and reliving everything with her current fragment of existence in time.
The fragment called Amina.
Her consciousness from outside of time was a sort of passive observer, being able to send feelings and intuitions, but not act or choose how to act.
Larger Identity Amina:
“This feels too real… I feel fear and i feel enclosed within what i remember as my previous host.
I know where this is, i want to tell him how i feel, maybe this time…it can be different?”
Amina’s human thoughts:
“What is with this anxiety I’m feeling… I am so happy… i don’t understand where this anxiety comes from, why is it here?
Forget it! Let me enjoy this….
I love his eyes, i love you…even if I’m not brave enough to say it out loud..i will scream it inside…maybe it can reach you…”
Amina shrugged and turned towards Kharis to say:
Amina’s Human Host:
“This beautiful night sky with blinking stars reminds me of the brain, you know, it reminds me of that video where we recorded the spikes, and it looked like blips of stars…
Question!
What do you think human consciousness is?
I mean…you know…awareness, me, Amina, you… I am curious how do you see it?”
Kharis smiled, and suddenly turned toward her staring into her eyes so deeply that she wasn’t sure how to react. She blushed and was happy that it was night, and he couldn’t see her desire to kiss him, there and then.
Kharis:
“Hmm…awareness you say…
I did think about that a lot…i imagine any curious mind will think about it eventually…
Want to know how i see it?”
Amina’s Human Host:
“Mhm, i do”
She smiled gently, moving around in her sleeping bag so she can see him better and create some space between their faces, to remove her anxiety, and to be able to enjoy the exhilaration of the moment.
Amina’s Human Host:
“Tell me.”
He raised himself up from the sleeping bag, turned towards the quiet lake, and went on.
Kharis:
“Ok then, let’s have a play of imagination.
Imagine you are on a planet that is all made of water.
On this water planet, there are billions of small islands, very small islands, and let’s say they have some abrupt columns of land coming from deep inside this water. These columns breach the surface, creating tiny islands all around.
Similar to an icicle, but upside down, with the top that is risen out of the water, this representing the island.
We will pick one of these, focus on one of them, and we see that even if it is small, it has trees, flowers, bugs and other complex life.
From its surface, it doesn’t seem to be much, it seems like what we see is all there is…
On this planet, it rains, all kinds of storms, warm and kind, cold and turbulent, it rains over these islands almost all the time.
This one island that we are focusing on, captures this water that comes from the outside, filters it through its earth, its rocks, and it goes within the island itself disappearing from the sight of its surface.
Now…”
He stopped and turned to look at her.
“Are you following me?”
Amina’s Human Host:
“Yes, i am, go on! I was in that world; I can see it!”
Kharis:
“Ok then, where was i…
Right, now, imagine that the island has a cave deep inside, a small hollow space, with a water puddle at the bottom, standing in a perfect stillness as nothing reaches it directly.
It has its edges and stays there isolated; it stays still within that small cave.
The rains slips and moves, it follows the cracks and eventually, it reaches the cave. On the ceiling, like flowing on a stalagmite, the water finds its way down and drips, slowly, drip by drip…falling into the quiet puddle that is isolated from everything else.
Drip…drip…they fall one by one, and when they touch the surface of the puddle, they create a wave.
A wave that starts to expand from the point of interaction, it moves symmetrically around its birth point, ahead on the surface of a thin water skin, facing its edges.
Many of these drops fall from different locations at different times, creating a unique, individual pattern of birth point for waves, and wave interaction types.
The waves dissipate when they touch the shore, others following to take its place, also moving towards the edge to find its end.
The cycle continues, the short-lived wave patterns express themselves on the water surface, deep below the surface, those unique wave patterns continue to be born, exist shortly, and disappear.
They exist hidden within the small, isolated cave, that exists within the island covered in life and shapes and distractions, over which different types of rain fall all the time, born from all the water that surrounds them on this water planet.
That continuous cycle of waves and their pattern of birth and dispersion, is what awareness, our thinking minds as a human are for me…
Small blips of existence hidden deep within a complex creation, existing for a moment and then disappearing to make room for the next one, that continuity of waves and their interactions, is what i believe i am, me, Kharis. You, Amina, not your body…but you…
I think of the rain as sunlight, energy that seeps within us and eventually gives birth to fascinating patterns of connection and mathematics, within that tiny cave, our brains.”
He got lost in thoughts of his own story, and while breathing in deeply the fresh summer air with the smell of pines and flowers, he kept his eyes fixed on the lake while he stopped from talking for a moment.
Amina was staring at him with a feeling of fascination, she was always entranced by his vivid imagination, his power to give meaning to what he lived and learned.
She got out of her sleeping bag, and went towards de water, stopping at the edge of the lake, she was looking at her own reflection when she felt a curious emotion being born inside.
Larger Identity Amina:
“I am trying to send forward to myself in this fragment of time the states of love, desire and impending doom if we let the moment pass…but…i can’t do more…
Speak to him! Trust me!
I am trying to convey these states to my smaller self…i seem to almost reach her awareness, but it seems it just passes through me, her, and the feelings i send are dismissed by this tiny young piece of me.”
The host of Amina from that fragment of time felt her inner voice, but thought it was nothing more than anxiety, fear, or who knows what, so she shook her head to dismiss what she felt, picked up a small stone, and stood up.
She dropped the stone from high up and watched as it caused ripples moving in all directions on the still surface of the lake, blurring her reflection, she got up, went to Kharis, and said.
Amina’s Human Host:
“Did i ever tell you how happy i am you are my friend? I love… spending time and hearing the stories born in your mind. I’m so glad we met that day.”
She gave him a warm smile and lowered herself to give him a hug, it was the most she could listen to the voice inside her, lacking courage to say more.
Time froze again, the galaxy in the night sky was melting into the lake, the man she was holding in her arms was melting into the scenery of a timeline that she was now being drawn out of.
Everything was left there, in the memory line, and Amina saw herself reverting to her “out of time” state with a new revelation.
Amina:
“I know! I understand!
That is how i reach you…this is what you will know!
I am sure you will remember, we spent the whole night talking about brain waves, consciousness, feelings, and i know you will recognise it , you will see that i am trying to talk to you.
I am now integrated enough to be able to exert some control. I can feel it, i feel that point in time where my body still is, my actual present as Amina.”
Amina in her state of energy, consciousness, was allowed to focus, to understand how to send communications inside that time fragment, and, it wasn’t meant to be difficult; after all, her experience in this space was a guiding journey for that specific purpose.
She could choose to tell us what she is now. If Amina chooses to do so, this will allow us to become what she is here, as we have grown enough to be reconnected to what is, fundamental consciousness.
But first she had to understand how to do so, and the memory she experienced this time, helped her do just that.
Amina:
“I will send you waves, patterns of waves, we loved to look at patterns in everything and we loved waves, i will send you my story, our story, encoded in my brain waves.
I will trust you will notice it, that it will reach you, so i am telling this to you, the way you told me your story that night by the lake, this time you have to listen…please…hear me!”
In a moment of growth, in her journey through space and time, the journey that the experiment pulled her consciousness in, enough understanding was gathered for her to gain the necessary controls, and to define how to tell her kind what truly is, and how wonderful it feels.
Amina:
“I am going to send you patterns of waves, in the same way as what i see is language and communication here, i will define numbers that will grow in complexity, they will be encoded in wave patterns and i know you will be able to decipher it.
I start to use my Will to alter the mathematics of my values, changing my colors and strings, altering everything in symmetry, and i can see him like a dream I’m almost forgetting…it’s working! He saw i am reaching out!”
The pieces of light merged and reformed, not giving her time to gain too much clarity of the point in the spiral where Kharis was desperately waiting in the observation room for her to come out, for the experiment to finish.
It would have made her choice less valid, and her Larger Identity needed a clear-headed entity now.
In another fragment of time, there was Kharis, a young man who was deeply in love with this human who was risking her life for the sake of understanding.
He was observing the quantum computers analysis and data capture of the ongoing experiment, but, mostly, he was keeping a vigilant eye on the life signs and brain patterns of Amina.
Kharis would have fought everyone in the room to save her if something went wrong, he would have stopped everything irrespective of the consequences.
He was pacing around the room feeling fear and anxiety, and thinking of all the things he could have done differently so that the present would be another, and not this.
But, he thought, “What was the point, as our wise man say” …and he repeated their words in his mind:
“Contrariwise, if it was so, it might be… And if it were so, it would be. But as it isn’t, it ain’t.”[1]
In the view that Amina could reach, she saw her two other best friends standing by Kharis.
They both dropped everything to be there, to help, to support him in this struggle, and she somehow felt happy they were by his side. It was their full gang from school, the four of them spent days, months, years together plotting and debating the meaning of existence.
He eventually sat down, and as he was holding his head in his hands, he felt the weight of the world, and the stop of time, as one often does in moments of fear and waiting in anticipation.
[1] This statement appears as a playful take on logic in the context of “Logicomix”, it is originally from Lewis Carroll’s “Through the Looking-Glass,” spoken by Tweedledee. Carroll, whose real name was Charles Lutwidge Dodgson, was not only a writer but also a mathematician.
